Walking in the rain

One of the things I like about cycling is being outside and seeing the world change as it floats around the sun. Part and parcel to that is experiencing changing weather.

I walked outside in the rain recently. It was a mild rain. Still there was a bit of a thrill to being outside in it. I ride year round and have ridden in rain and snow. Going outside in the rain, even just to walk down the driveway and collect the mail, felt sort of like taking a risk. It was also a pleasant reminder of the changes I get to experience when I'm out on my bike.

Physically I don't feel lots of problems any more. By the end of each day my hands hurt and are painful to open and close. The right hand is difficult to close completely and doesn't have normal strength yet. The right shoulder and knee still need bandages if I'm going to wear clothing that covers them. Basically there's still a few dings and scrapes, they're not too severe but combined with the spine and neck fractures they do slow me down.

The biggest problems are the invisible injuries, fractures and swelling inside my head. The doctor calls it TBI (traumatic brain injury). I can't feel it or gage very will how it affects my ability to do things. I have to try and do things and see how well I do. At this point everything takes longer than it should and I'm not aware of where or how it gets off track. Almost like "thinking through molasses" without being aware you're in it.